I'll leave everything for you- chapter seven

*Dazai’s P.O.V

I feel bad for not able to take (y/n) for lunch today.Maybe I should take her for dinner tonight.I took my phone from my pocket and texted her.

<(y/n),wait for me at home okay.I just need to take something from the office.>

I press the send button and walked happily to the office.I was humming my favourite suicide song when I noticed my dorm key on my table.Along with a note.

To Dazai,

 Thank you for letting me stay with you.I appreciated it.It meant so much to me.I wish I can repay your kindness one day.But I know I can’t be clinging to you all the time.When you’re reading this,maybe I am already on my way to somewhere.I can’t tell you where cause if I tell you,you’ll come to find me.

 Tell the man-tiger to be careful.Akutagawa seems to hate him a lot.I noticed it.He really want to defeat that man-tiger.All he think every day is to kill him.That’s just how much he hate the man tiger.I don’t know why.But I know it’s not for the bounty,it’s for himself.Maybe he wants you to acknowledge his strength,Dazai.

 To you,please don’t attempt suicide anymore.Suicide is not a hobby.So don’t do it.If you’re doing it because of pain,then remember this:

SUICIDE DOESN’T END THE PAIN,IT JUST PASSES IT ON TO SOMEONE ELSE

Yours sincerely,(l/n) (y/n)

What is the meaning of this?She’s leaving?Why?Aaarghhhh,so many question that need to be answer.Suddenly,I heard someone entering the office.I turned around and saw the president.

“Oh,you’re still here Dazai.”-he said with a serious face.(his face is always serious.)

“Yeah,I need to take a few things.”

“Okay.”-he replied.

“Umm,president.”

“Yes?”-he replied.

“Can I take a few days off.Maybe a week.”

“Why?”-he asked.

“I need to find the love of my life.She was with me this morning.”

“I see.But why you request for days off if she’s with you?”-he asked again.

“She was.Now she’s disappeared and I need to find her.”

“Okay,you can.You can take off days as long as you want but after this,you can’t request any day off again,for a year.Don’t come back until you find her.”-he said and leave.

“Thank you,president.”

I sighed and tried to control my tears from falling.Why did she do this to me?She must be thinking that she’s a burden to me.I just can’t tell her the truth.That I gave up my suicide hobby since she’s living with me.Because of her,I have reasons to live my life.